So recently my younger brother was involved in a conversation with a friend, the subject revolving around the question of: "Why are guys never ok with being JUST FRIENDS?" This is a question that is a very hot button issue between the genders, and one that most males hate with a sometimes violent passion. I promised that I would weigh in on this subject myself, though I am treading into very rough and murky waters with this Perfect Storm of a thing. I do not know whether girls are really looking for an answer to this, and if they are perhaps I can explain it for them (being that I am undoubtedly male). And perhaps some of my fellow brothers out there will cheer in triumph as I present my case, as they will understand exactly where I am coming from. So here I go and may my cannons be primed to return any unfriendly fire.
So as I mentioned this question is a very hot button issue for guys, in fact most guys despise this question because it is a loaded question. Now the girl who asks it 9 out of 10 times is honestly curious about the answer, but that other 1 girl who asks has the deeper meaning to it. Normally she is the one the guy in question has been either pursuing or wanting, but she of course doesn't have the mutual feelings (trust me I've dealt with this situation multiple times). Whether or not she has made that clear is part of the problem when the question is asked, if she hasn't then the guy can hardly be blamed for continuing his pursuit of her. But like I said this is only 10% of girls, the other 90% do not fall into this category. Though this question DOES highlight a massive difference between the genders, a difference that sadly leads to the "Friends Only" problem mentioned.
Girls have asked this question a lot it seems, or I have heard guys asked it quite frequently. Girls want to know why girls and guys cannot be JUST FRIENDS, after all it seems like it is quite simple thing to do. Well the answer to this question is equally as simple, though if it is believed depends on the girl in question. The answer is: We are not DESIGNED that way ladies, literally that is NOT our function with life. Oh it is not that we CAN'T be just friends, it's that most of the time that ISN'T WHAT WE WANT. I know this sounds a bit selfish on our part, but hear me out. God created Man to be a Protector, Provider, and a Pursuer, we were created to GO AFTER the things we want in Life.
Just Friends kinda LIMITS US on this front, sure we don't mind being your friend but we are made for COMPANIONSHIP. Men by nature are NOT pack/group oriented beings, you females are (just look at girls in high schools they travel in packs). Guy are much like Lone Wolves, solitary and wander-some as we go through life. On average we are very single-minded as we go through Life, we know what we want and our job is to expend energy to get it (distractions though of course do factor in). But trying to mold us into a mold that we are not supposed to be in (platonic friendship) is not really effective and leads to much frustration, like I said it is NOT how we are designed to be.
Now we of course realize that we must ACCEPT THIS with most girls as we can only be with ONE of you (as marriage is designed to be). However this does not mean that we LIKE THIS place, like I mentioned we are protectors and providers by nature. However we cannot DO THIS if you always are shooting us down or looking for someone BETTER than us (better is a subjective term anyways). For guys this question is MUCH MORE DEEPLY ROOTED. It isn't so much about being Just Friends as what Just Friends means, to us it means you are afraid to TAKE A CHANCE with us.
I may not know a whole lot about relationships but I do know that normally the person you marry must be your BEST FRIEND (in every way). Obviously the way a relationship starts is that you meet a person and then begin to get to know them, and yes at a time BE JUST FRIENDS. But for guys this ISN'T a PERMANENT STATE for us to exist in, we are befriending girls so that we might hopefully find the girl we are to marry (Marriage is put of the picture Ladies and Gentlemen, accept it). Now we of course know this is a delicate process as we cannot choose JUST ANYONE (to do so would be retarded and stupid on our parts). Also we must take into account where your emotional, psychological, and most importantly spiritual, state is as an individual (being with someone means you take their issues and other stuff on, in addition to your own). But being JUST FRIENDS kinda just BUSTS UP this entire process, or I should say remaining just friends does so.
There is a common thread of thought that guys are afraid of commitment, namely they are afraid to settle down and stick to a single girl. I cannot speak for all guys or even most guys (all guys are different). But I do know the difference lies in their Spiritual State as a man, Non-Believer guys obviously have no Holy Spirit with which to guide their actions. So the fact that their main pursuit in Life is the bed as many females as possible, without making a true commitment to any of them, is neither surprising nor unexpected. Some Christians guys can fall victim to this train of thought and action as well too, so I cannot say that all Christian guys are gonna act properly either. However a proper Christian guy, flawed and damaged of course, but filled and led as much as possible by the Holy Spirit will be the exception to this rule. He knows that part of Life is to find a mate and to care for her as much as he humanly may. Everyday thanking the Good Father above for the gift of her in his life, I would like to think I fall into this category (though I am still Single at this time). So I cannot say that ALL GUYS are afraid of commitment.
But I have a return question for the girls who ask this question, and I think it is fair game for me to ask it. You want to know why guys don't like being JUST FRIENDS, well this guy wants to know: WHY ARE YOU AFRAID TO BE MORE THAN FRIENDS? If you are married or even dating then it means that you TOOK A CHANCE on someone, but you were JUST FRIENDS with them before. I've heard a reason to my question being: "Well I don't want to ruin the friendship/make the friendship awkward" while a completed VALID POINT, if everyone thought like that there would be no marriage or even relationships at all. But I would really like to hear an ANSWER to my question (perhaps GIRLS are just as afraid of commitment).
Perhaps I don't understand this delicate and sometimes frustration dance between the sexes, but I hope I have provided an answer for the question females like to ask us guys. So there you go and have a great night.
Monday, December 26, 2011
Saturday, November 26, 2011
End of a Rope
You know what people? FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How does being up on your fucking Self-Righteous Mountain feel? Boy I really wish I was GOOD ENOUGH to be up there with you, telling people to STOP being humans. Wow easy for you to sit there and lecture me in my heart-brokenness and DARE I SAY IT, feeling HOPELESS with Life. I didn't know that feeling HUMAN was a crime, someone breakout the handcuffs and cuff me so I can be escorted to my cell. So apparently the Christian Church is only for SUPER PEOPLE who never doubt or feel alone. Son of a Bitch I didn't know that you guys all had a KEY to Faith, someone give me a drink of the Elixir of Having Faith. Perhaps people like you should drink some of the GIVE A FUCK ABOUT PEOPLE'S LIVES Elixir, then again maybe your tiny minds would EXPLODE if you actually had to give a shit about people's feelings. I'm sure you derive sexual pleasure from putting me down or rolling your eyes at my FLOUNDERING in trying to find a FUCKING LIFEPATH. You say I am dead-set on being TOLD NO from God, well perhaps that is because I am USED TO IT. I have heard no from Him so many times that if I heard Yes, I would probably have a heart-attack. I am sorry I do not have the RELATIONSHIP with God you seem to think I should, but last time I checked this was MY Christian Walk with Him not Your's (learn the fucking difference unless you care to HELP ME). Do I give up and get discouraged easily? Sure but if anyone says they don't, you are a FUCKING LIAR. If I had my way I would kick your ass off the Mountain back down to reality with the rest of us MERE MORTALS. Thank the Lord Almighty I don't have that power, because I would TEAR YOUR ASSES apart. You think that by PISSING ME OFF you will somehow spurn me into action? It actually simply makes me HATE YOU and want to KILL YOUR ASS. I don't fucking answer to you, why don't you find some FUCKING COMPASSION or GROW A DAMN HEART. This kind of BULLSHIT causes people to KILL THEMSELVES. I pity your asses when the Lord reigns FIERY DESTRUCTION over your foolish heads. PISS OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, October 23, 2011
God-Less=Godless
So I recently watched a video from China about a little girl crossing the street, halfway across the street she is hit by a van and run over. However once she is on the floor the driver doesn't get out of the van to see if she is alright, instead the driver BACKS UP OVER HER and then drives over her again and speeds off. The tragedy doesn't end there though, as this little guy lies in the middle of the street people just walk right around her without even stopping. The little girl lies there motionless as if dead for several minutes, finally a woman takes notice and drags her out of the street and behind some boxes. It is only AFTER this woman takes notice do all kinds of other people rush over to see if the little girl is alright. The girl is shown a few years later and she is now PSYCHICALLY SCARRED and half-insane from the ordeal, all because of the apathy that runs through a nation who long left God behind as part of its heritage and history. (And this trend is deeply infecting America as well).
I find it funny that when a natural disaster like Hurricane Katrina or attack like 9/11 occurs people always ask the SAME QUESTION: "Where was God when this happened?" Seen many times as some non-existent entity for the weak-minded or some mythical force that is and around everyone on earth. The only time it seems people choose to recognize the existence of God is when they want to blame Him for something or wish to make a deal to get out of trouble for a decision of their own stupidity. But when everything is fine and dandy God "ceases" to exist, and if you believe in Him you are an idiot. So perhaps the answer to the question is God is right where we asked Him to be, outside our culture where He waits to be asked back in.
As we are told all the time, God is a gentleman. He will not force Himself somewhere He is not wanted, and the overall consensus for many people (our leaders especially) is that we do not want God in aspect of our nation or culture. This is a sad departure from our glorious heritage where our leaders opened up Congress with a prayer session and our Presidents prayed everyday for the wisdom from God to guide this great nation. As a result America quickly rose to prominence in the world and became one of the MAJOR PLAYERS in world affairs, coming to par with the Old Powers of Europe such as Great Britain and France.
Then came the 1960s in America, the Era of Free Love and Challenging Authority. Suddenly everything that the government did was scrutinized and largely disobeyed, also people challenged the longstanding traditions of this country like Prayer in Schools (banned in 1963) and the Sanctity of Unborn Life (abortion legalized in 1973). America turned from a Nation of Prayers and Morals, to a Nation of "Higher Thinkers" and Enlightened Despots. Suddenly God was not worthy or good enough to be included in our plans and future, the Leaders of the future wanted to forge their OWN PLAN into the next Eras.
And here we are in 2011: we have 9.1% unemployment nationwide (over 10% in Southern California), we are facing one of the WORST RECESSIONS in our history, our currency is quickly becoming worthless, gas prices have skyrocketed out of control, our current leaders (the ones who challenged the authority in 1960s) are now the ones sitting in their offices doing NOTHING (except playing the blame game), citizens are losing their homes, and boiling anger is running through the American Public as they demand the Government FIX THE PROBLEMS IT CREATED (while the cry falls on deaf ears). Yet people still say that God is not necessary or wanted, our Leaders scream about "Separation of Church and State" and how God is an outdated standard that the Educated no longer need. Is it any wonder WHY our nation is in rapid decline? We are the ones who told God to GET OUT OF THE COUNTRY and REVOKED HIS PASSPORT, yet we have the AUDACITY to blame Him when something goes wrong?
This dsylexic nation needs to make a choice about WHERE God fits into the picture, either He is to be included and OBEYED to grant blessings or excluded and not blamed when He "fails" to stop a disaster. Despite this "have it all" culture we espouse, we cannot have it both ways. We cannot live the way we want and not expect to have to live with the CONSEQUENCES of our actions. Really there is only ONE OPTION that works, and that is THE LORD'S WAY (without it we can kiss the Hand of Protection goodbye that God is willing to still offer the U.S.). Also our Leaders AND Citizens would do well to re-think their current Anti-Semitic feelings towards the State of Israel for sake of oil, considering Israel is our ONLY TRUE FRIEND AND ALLY in the Middle East Region. History has shown previous results of what happens to nations and/or empires that the Jews suffer under or are opposed by, they end up going down in flaming ruin. The United States needs to seriously examine itself before it is too late, Disciples of Jesus Christ are not the ones IN THE WAY OF PROGRESS. Rather we are the ones standing in the way of UTTER DESTRUCTION being visited upon the great nation for its choices, through us the Holy Spirit offers healing and redemption for those seeking answers. I can promise this: should we be expelled or taken away, MORE CHAOS THAN EVER would pour into this nation and it would COLLAPSE FROM THE INSIDE. Anyways these are just thinks to think of, I wish you a pleasant evening and will answer any questions you have.
"Righteous exalts a nation, but sin is a reproach to any people." Proverbs 14:34
"I will bless them who blesses you, and curse him who curses you; and through you all the families of the earth shall be blessed" Genesis 12:3
I find it funny that when a natural disaster like Hurricane Katrina or attack like 9/11 occurs people always ask the SAME QUESTION: "Where was God when this happened?" Seen many times as some non-existent entity for the weak-minded or some mythical force that is and around everyone on earth. The only time it seems people choose to recognize the existence of God is when they want to blame Him for something or wish to make a deal to get out of trouble for a decision of their own stupidity. But when everything is fine and dandy God "ceases" to exist, and if you believe in Him you are an idiot. So perhaps the answer to the question is God is right where we asked Him to be, outside our culture where He waits to be asked back in.
As we are told all the time, God is a gentleman. He will not force Himself somewhere He is not wanted, and the overall consensus for many people (our leaders especially) is that we do not want God in aspect of our nation or culture. This is a sad departure from our glorious heritage where our leaders opened up Congress with a prayer session and our Presidents prayed everyday for the wisdom from God to guide this great nation. As a result America quickly rose to prominence in the world and became one of the MAJOR PLAYERS in world affairs, coming to par with the Old Powers of Europe such as Great Britain and France.
Then came the 1960s in America, the Era of Free Love and Challenging Authority. Suddenly everything that the government did was scrutinized and largely disobeyed, also people challenged the longstanding traditions of this country like Prayer in Schools (banned in 1963) and the Sanctity of Unborn Life (abortion legalized in 1973). America turned from a Nation of Prayers and Morals, to a Nation of "Higher Thinkers" and Enlightened Despots. Suddenly God was not worthy or good enough to be included in our plans and future, the Leaders of the future wanted to forge their OWN PLAN into the next Eras.
And here we are in 2011: we have 9.1% unemployment nationwide (over 10% in Southern California), we are facing one of the WORST RECESSIONS in our history, our currency is quickly becoming worthless, gas prices have skyrocketed out of control, our current leaders (the ones who challenged the authority in 1960s) are now the ones sitting in their offices doing NOTHING (except playing the blame game), citizens are losing their homes, and boiling anger is running through the American Public as they demand the Government FIX THE PROBLEMS IT CREATED (while the cry falls on deaf ears). Yet people still say that God is not necessary or wanted, our Leaders scream about "Separation of Church and State" and how God is an outdated standard that the Educated no longer need. Is it any wonder WHY our nation is in rapid decline? We are the ones who told God to GET OUT OF THE COUNTRY and REVOKED HIS PASSPORT, yet we have the AUDACITY to blame Him when something goes wrong?
This dsylexic nation needs to make a choice about WHERE God fits into the picture, either He is to be included and OBEYED to grant blessings or excluded and not blamed when He "fails" to stop a disaster. Despite this "have it all" culture we espouse, we cannot have it both ways. We cannot live the way we want and not expect to have to live with the CONSEQUENCES of our actions. Really there is only ONE OPTION that works, and that is THE LORD'S WAY (without it we can kiss the Hand of Protection goodbye that God is willing to still offer the U.S.). Also our Leaders AND Citizens would do well to re-think their current Anti-Semitic feelings towards the State of Israel for sake of oil, considering Israel is our ONLY TRUE FRIEND AND ALLY in the Middle East Region. History has shown previous results of what happens to nations and/or empires that the Jews suffer under or are opposed by, they end up going down in flaming ruin. The United States needs to seriously examine itself before it is too late, Disciples of Jesus Christ are not the ones IN THE WAY OF PROGRESS. Rather we are the ones standing in the way of UTTER DESTRUCTION being visited upon the great nation for its choices, through us the Holy Spirit offers healing and redemption for those seeking answers. I can promise this: should we be expelled or taken away, MORE CHAOS THAN EVER would pour into this nation and it would COLLAPSE FROM THE INSIDE. Anyways these are just thinks to think of, I wish you a pleasant evening and will answer any questions you have.
"Righteous exalts a nation, but sin is a reproach to any people." Proverbs 14:34
"I will bless them who blesses you, and curse him who curses you; and through you all the families of the earth shall be blessed" Genesis 12:3
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Self-Portrait
I think perhaps it is time that I tell you a little more about myself, not that I really OWE anyone an explanation about anything at this point. But being that I am a nice guy and can be rational, I write this some that you morons who like to mislabel me all the time finally have no excuse to do so anymore. This is also so you don't think I am some heartless and bitter prick of nature. If you choose to continue your stupidity after this explanation, I would advise you to either smack yourself in the head or seek professional psychiatric attention.
1. I am a Warrior
I am ALIVE when I really shouldn't be, being born at 1lb. 13oz. pretty much marked my destiny from the beginning. This being the case it means I am born with certain traits and personality quirks, namely that of being very straight-forward and aggressive. I don't have the option to show weakness or doubt for even a second, I was created to go out and DESTROY Forces of Darkness and I take the calling very seriously. So instead of labeling me as some dingbat psychopath, how about about trying to UNDERSTAND why I seem to be fighting off EVERYTHING in my way?
2. I have massive trust issues
Contrary to what some of you who know me might thing, I actually DO BEAR psychic scars in my life. For 4 years in Grade school I was constantly verbally bullied by a group of my own peers simply because I was OUTSIDE their group. This culminated in me being jumped and having my wrist broken, after which my parents pulled me out of school to Home School me. But the trouble didn't stop there, my cousin took the place of my former tormentors and for an additional 3 years tortured me verbally and ran me down like I was nothing. So now I am stuck with the psychic stigma of "You are not good enough and never will be" hence why I am very GRUFF and STRAIGHT TO THE POINT. So once again I am not some guy who decided one day to be PISSED OFF his entire life, so STOP ASSUMING THAT ABOUT ME.
3. I have a certain bitterness towards relationships
Now before you go thinking that this is me popping off at simply being single, that is not it. Sure like many single people my age I do have that longing desire to find someone to spend my life with, though I have yet to find that person (Lord hear my prayers and prepare me accordingly). No what I am talking about is people who make this promise to not forget me if they start dating, then suddenly make me seem like I am invisible when someone enters their life. Look do not make promises you cannot possibly keep, just say "Hey Sam I will try not to forget you, but if I do thanks so much for being a good friend and I will see you around." If someone told me something like that I would be more able to accept it, but don't make grand promises with mouth that your actions can't cash just to make me feel better. I don't expect super-human things from people, but also don't treat me like I am some EXPENDABLE piece of crap under your shoe just because you have a new toy to play with.
4. I am a STRAIGHT SHOOTER
This one should be plain and simple to understand, I say what I mean and I mean what I say. I do not have time for idle "bush beating", I shoot straight to the point and attack a problem head on with little room for debating or haranguing. Do not ask me for my opinion if you do not want to hear the truth, because I will tell you exactly what I think (unless of course someone's life is on the line). If you want me to simply LISTEN to you then make that clear, any other approach and I am going to guess you actually want an answer to whatever you are telling me. I am NOT politically correct and will not sugarcoat anything, if I see something is wrong I am going to keep mentioning it until it is fixed or dealt with. This does not mean that I do not have the ability to be diplomatic, because if I didn't there would be many DESTROYED people around me. Just don't waste my time with idle jaw-jacking and we will get along fine. If you don't like BRUTAL HONESTY then I suggest you steer clear of me.
5. I am an EMOTIONAL GUY
Now contrary to the bullshit notion that guys can't cry or show emotion, I am a classic example of the opposite. Unlike most guys I am not PURE LOGIC, I actually operate most off my heart. As a side-effect of this I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve and take things personally. This is a condition that I wish my hardest that I could change, but have yet to figure out HOW or IF I even should or can. I tend to feel the pain of others and take it to myself, I even CRY for others' problems on occasion. However do not think that I am some pushover wimp, you attack my heart and I promise I will tear your head from your shoulders and EAT IT. DO NOT TRY TO MANIPULATE ME, I DO NOT TAKE KINDLY TO IT!!!!!
6. I am Loyal as a person and friend/But dangerous as an enemy
Much like a dog I am loyal almost to a fault, I will go out of my way and drop what I am doing if you need my help. Once my friendship is gained I am normally a friend for life, literally either you or I would have to die before I stopped being your friend (unless you tell me to go away). However also like a dog if you push me too far or in some way betray me, I will not hesitate to rip your body apart. Touch one of my friends and you will BEG for mercy and the comfort of DEATH before I am done with you. I am one of the deadliest enemies you can ever have, I will pursue your destruction until there is NOTHING left in me. So choose wisely when it comes to which side of me you want to meet. I can either be very loving and kind or psychotically unstoppable.
7. I am Black and White in how I see the world
Simpy put I believe in Absolutes and Truths, I do not buy into or support the Post-Modernist bull that our nation and world espies. RIGHT AND WRONG are my code, don't like it? That is too damn bad
8. I am a Hopeless Romantic
I believe in Love At First Sight and True Love exists, if I had a girl I would love her properly and with everything in me that I could. I would treat her special and with respect, and would PROTECT her as best as humanly possible from everything (including myself). I believe in simplicity with dating, things like going to the beach or walking in the park with a girl is my ideal of a perfect date. I also believe in being a Gentleman and being polite and proper when it comes to interacting with girls (I don't always succeed, but I damn sure try my hardest). I would much rather hold hands with or just hold a girl in my arms then have sex with her, also want to kiss a girl in the rain one day.
9. Girls Confuse Me
Like most guys when it comes to our female counterparts, I do not understand what they actually want from us. I will not get into the whole Nice Guys vs. Bad Boy debate, but know that we as guys DO NOT READ MINDS. Also when a girl tells me I am special but....... I am still not sure WHAT that means exactly. To be honest it makes me feel like she thinks I am not good enough for her, though been told I am TOO GOOD for them several times. Anyways girls confuse me, and probably always will.
10. Simple Things Make Me Happy
Things like cooking a dinner successfully or hanging out with my dog talking about Life are the things that resonate with me most. Having a MEANINGFUL conversation about something will make my day, so will things like sniffing the roses or admiring a tree. I am NOT a complex individual and do not ask for me, simply FRIENDS to talk to and love and a PURPOSE in Life and I am golden. I like to walk in the rain and read books during a thunderstorm.
I could probably put more but I think this is sufficient for now, perhaps now you will THINK TWICE before you go off and label me as UNCARING or UNLOVING or UNWORTHY OF LIVING. I am not perfect and recognize this fact EVERY DAY of my life, I don't need any of you self-righteous jackasses reminding me of that (Satan does that enough to last me a million lifetimes). If you continue you stupidity I will simply just IGNORE YOU from now on, I am done letting people try to mold me into the docile, "good little Christian Boy" And those of you who have a better understanding of me now, don't be afraid to talk to me or befriend me. I am tough yes, but under all the Armor of me beats the heart of a simple Little Boy.
1. I am a Warrior
I am ALIVE when I really shouldn't be, being born at 1lb. 13oz. pretty much marked my destiny from the beginning. This being the case it means I am born with certain traits and personality quirks, namely that of being very straight-forward and aggressive. I don't have the option to show weakness or doubt for even a second, I was created to go out and DESTROY Forces of Darkness and I take the calling very seriously. So instead of labeling me as some dingbat psychopath, how about about trying to UNDERSTAND why I seem to be fighting off EVERYTHING in my way?
2. I have massive trust issues
Contrary to what some of you who know me might thing, I actually DO BEAR psychic scars in my life. For 4 years in Grade school I was constantly verbally bullied by a group of my own peers simply because I was OUTSIDE their group. This culminated in me being jumped and having my wrist broken, after which my parents pulled me out of school to Home School me. But the trouble didn't stop there, my cousin took the place of my former tormentors and for an additional 3 years tortured me verbally and ran me down like I was nothing. So now I am stuck with the psychic stigma of "You are not good enough and never will be" hence why I am very GRUFF and STRAIGHT TO THE POINT. So once again I am not some guy who decided one day to be PISSED OFF his entire life, so STOP ASSUMING THAT ABOUT ME.
3. I have a certain bitterness towards relationships
Now before you go thinking that this is me popping off at simply being single, that is not it. Sure like many single people my age I do have that longing desire to find someone to spend my life with, though I have yet to find that person (Lord hear my prayers and prepare me accordingly). No what I am talking about is people who make this promise to not forget me if they start dating, then suddenly make me seem like I am invisible when someone enters their life. Look do not make promises you cannot possibly keep, just say "Hey Sam I will try not to forget you, but if I do thanks so much for being a good friend and I will see you around." If someone told me something like that I would be more able to accept it, but don't make grand promises with mouth that your actions can't cash just to make me feel better. I don't expect super-human things from people, but also don't treat me like I am some EXPENDABLE piece of crap under your shoe just because you have a new toy to play with.
4. I am a STRAIGHT SHOOTER
This one should be plain and simple to understand, I say what I mean and I mean what I say. I do not have time for idle "bush beating", I shoot straight to the point and attack a problem head on with little room for debating or haranguing. Do not ask me for my opinion if you do not want to hear the truth, because I will tell you exactly what I think (unless of course someone's life is on the line). If you want me to simply LISTEN to you then make that clear, any other approach and I am going to guess you actually want an answer to whatever you are telling me. I am NOT politically correct and will not sugarcoat anything, if I see something is wrong I am going to keep mentioning it until it is fixed or dealt with. This does not mean that I do not have the ability to be diplomatic, because if I didn't there would be many DESTROYED people around me. Just don't waste my time with idle jaw-jacking and we will get along fine. If you don't like BRUTAL HONESTY then I suggest you steer clear of me.
5. I am an EMOTIONAL GUY
Now contrary to the bullshit notion that guys can't cry or show emotion, I am a classic example of the opposite. Unlike most guys I am not PURE LOGIC, I actually operate most off my heart. As a side-effect of this I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve and take things personally. This is a condition that I wish my hardest that I could change, but have yet to figure out HOW or IF I even should or can. I tend to feel the pain of others and take it to myself, I even CRY for others' problems on occasion. However do not think that I am some pushover wimp, you attack my heart and I promise I will tear your head from your shoulders and EAT IT. DO NOT TRY TO MANIPULATE ME, I DO NOT TAKE KINDLY TO IT!!!!!
6. I am Loyal as a person and friend/But dangerous as an enemy
Much like a dog I am loyal almost to a fault, I will go out of my way and drop what I am doing if you need my help. Once my friendship is gained I am normally a friend for life, literally either you or I would have to die before I stopped being your friend (unless you tell me to go away). However also like a dog if you push me too far or in some way betray me, I will not hesitate to rip your body apart. Touch one of my friends and you will BEG for mercy and the comfort of DEATH before I am done with you. I am one of the deadliest enemies you can ever have, I will pursue your destruction until there is NOTHING left in me. So choose wisely when it comes to which side of me you want to meet. I can either be very loving and kind or psychotically unstoppable.
7. I am Black and White in how I see the world
Simpy put I believe in Absolutes and Truths, I do not buy into or support the Post-Modernist bull that our nation and world espies. RIGHT AND WRONG are my code, don't like it? That is too damn bad
8. I am a Hopeless Romantic
I believe in Love At First Sight and True Love exists, if I had a girl I would love her properly and with everything in me that I could. I would treat her special and with respect, and would PROTECT her as best as humanly possible from everything (including myself). I believe in simplicity with dating, things like going to the beach or walking in the park with a girl is my ideal of a perfect date. I also believe in being a Gentleman and being polite and proper when it comes to interacting with girls (I don't always succeed, but I damn sure try my hardest). I would much rather hold hands with or just hold a girl in my arms then have sex with her, also want to kiss a girl in the rain one day.
9. Girls Confuse Me
Like most guys when it comes to our female counterparts, I do not understand what they actually want from us. I will not get into the whole Nice Guys vs. Bad Boy debate, but know that we as guys DO NOT READ MINDS. Also when a girl tells me I am special but....... I am still not sure WHAT that means exactly. To be honest it makes me feel like she thinks I am not good enough for her, though been told I am TOO GOOD for them several times. Anyways girls confuse me, and probably always will.
10. Simple Things Make Me Happy
Things like cooking a dinner successfully or hanging out with my dog talking about Life are the things that resonate with me most. Having a MEANINGFUL conversation about something will make my day, so will things like sniffing the roses or admiring a tree. I am NOT a complex individual and do not ask for me, simply FRIENDS to talk to and love and a PURPOSE in Life and I am golden. I like to walk in the rain and read books during a thunderstorm.
I could probably put more but I think this is sufficient for now, perhaps now you will THINK TWICE before you go off and label me as UNCARING or UNLOVING or UNWORTHY OF LIVING. I am not perfect and recognize this fact EVERY DAY of my life, I don't need any of you self-righteous jackasses reminding me of that (Satan does that enough to last me a million lifetimes). If you continue you stupidity I will simply just IGNORE YOU from now on, I am done letting people try to mold me into the docile, "good little Christian Boy" And those of you who have a better understanding of me now, don't be afraid to talk to me or befriend me. I am tough yes, but under all the Armor of me beats the heart of a simple Little Boy.
Monday, October 17, 2011
Back and Blogging
So after what seems an eternity walking the shadows of my mind, I have returned from the dark recess of that hellish place to FREEDOM once more. Why have I been gone you might ask? Well suffice it to say I have had to FIGHT for freedom (mainly against MYSELF), that and against the labels and opinions OTHERS have put on me. But I have finally come to realize that what YOU and OTHERS might thing of me DOESN'T F-ING MATTER!!!!! If I am not "good enough" for you, then you are not worth my time getting to know and can stay in the world of your own stupidity. I was created by God with an OPINION and I damn sure intent to USE IT, earth knows that not ENOUGH people actually stand up and speak TRUTH when needed. In this Age of Political Correctness we are told to SHUT UP and KEEP SILENT, because we might OFFEND SOMEONE. Well Political Correctness offends me, because it is all mainly bullshit. Jesus wasn't politically correct when he spoke, and so neither will I be. You can't handle my brand of honesty and truth, then get the hell out of the way and don't read this blog. No longer shall the opinions of the NOBODIES (people bitch at me because I am too real or honest) hold me back, if I feel the need to express myself then no one except GOD has the right to tell me to tone it down. And to those scumbags who read this then talk about me behind my back, you can climb up a cliff and jump right off. I don't NEED you. And if you go self-righteous Christianese all over me, I will CUT YOUR ASS IN HALF so fast you won't know what happened to you.
All that being said I now turn to the main crux of my whole reason for writing this, I used to be a big blogger in college and gave my views and thoughts on EVERYTHING (love, sex, political issues, spiritual debates, etc.). However sometime around my Junior Year I began to wane and then stopped because of the opinions of others and their own views crowding out mine. But at the suggestion of a close friend of mine I have decided to return to the blogging world once more, because this Rabbi sees the world and has ALOT to say about it. So once more I am going to apply my vast and powerful thoughts to the world at large and NOTHING and NO ONE is safe (public and private people). For too long Truth has been absent from this world and country, with people too afraid to speak out against established order. Well just like Jesus and the Prophets of the Old Testament, I will stand up int he midst of the Congregation and THUNDER the messages necessary for people to hear. Once again if you don't like it, then piss off and read something ELSE.
So together with those who SEEK TO HEAR TRUTH, I will be a guide to speak into the hearts of those who are at least interested to hear. So shall I take my place among the Great Thinkers who were not afraid to speak, for nothing can come against the Lord's Child unless He allows it. So to those of you who would try to challenge the Lord, I say "Come At Me Bro!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
All that being said I now turn to the main crux of my whole reason for writing this, I used to be a big blogger in college and gave my views and thoughts on EVERYTHING (love, sex, political issues, spiritual debates, etc.). However sometime around my Junior Year I began to wane and then stopped because of the opinions of others and their own views crowding out mine. But at the suggestion of a close friend of mine I have decided to return to the blogging world once more, because this Rabbi sees the world and has ALOT to say about it. So once more I am going to apply my vast and powerful thoughts to the world at large and NOTHING and NO ONE is safe (public and private people). For too long Truth has been absent from this world and country, with people too afraid to speak out against established order. Well just like Jesus and the Prophets of the Old Testament, I will stand up int he midst of the Congregation and THUNDER the messages necessary for people to hear. Once again if you don't like it, then piss off and read something ELSE.
So together with those who SEEK TO HEAR TRUTH, I will be a guide to speak into the hearts of those who are at least interested to hear. So shall I take my place among the Great Thinkers who were not afraid to speak, for nothing can come against the Lord's Child unless He allows it. So to those of you who would try to challenge the Lord, I say "Come At Me Bro!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
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